Bob Wingate: Spontaneity
I’ve always liked being spontaneous. Sometimes when I lived life off-the-cuff, I wasn’t prepared enough and didn’t like the consequences. But it was fun to be somewhat compulsive and carefree, and not always know what was waiting around the corner.
As life goes on, we grow older and more mature and our lives get more complicated. We’re expected to be more mature, and make more practical and prudent decisions.Our moves are designed to be more deliberate and our thoughts and emotions more calculated.
I’ve always longed to go back to the days of spontaneity again. To relive those times of being completely carefree and even sometimes totally careless.But it seems that the stakes get too high. We have other lives depending on us to do the right thing. We have less room for error as we carefully plan out our lives moment by moment.
There’s been an energy and a force at work in my life for some time. Sometimes I ignore it. Oftentimes I deny it by the way that I live. But even when I’m not aware, it is there. Some of you prefer the ambiguity of spirituality. I must acknowledge that it’s more than a thing or an energy force. It’s God’s hand on my life.
I really hate it whenever people who don’t know try to pretend that they do know or try to prove that they’re right to believe in nothing.They have a right to believe in nothing, but that doesn’t mean that they ARE right in believing in nothing. I also get downright frustrated with those who say we can’t know. Or won’t know until after this life. I maintain that this life isn’t as worth living if you cannot know. And being able to know God is what makes it all worthwhile.
My faith is not just built on a hope. It doesn’t depend on myself or any manufactured emotion or commotion. It’s a faith that is built on facts. Our universe is so tightly woven together, it is so complex yet works together perfectly. The spiritual world is no different. It has a consistency, a pattern, a plan behind it.
Back to spontaneity. As I continue to ascent to and abide in the presence of God– the energy force, and also my personal friend– I become aware of him actually working in and through my life. Sometimes he’s in the background, and I see hints of his working. And other times, it’s obviously his handiwork. He comes out of nowhere and does something or works out some detail that no one else could do, and didn’t even know to do. Most of the time, I don’t even see it coming.
It’s nice to have a planned spontaneity. It’s great to wake up every day and wonder what is going to happen next. But also to be aware that there’s Someone who loves me, working behind the scenes, that cares what happens in my life, and is working out a plan, even when it seems that I’m just improvising and ad libbing my way through each day.
If you have read this and it doesn’t make a bit of sense to you, then maybe it’s because you haven’t found God in a personal way in your life yet. Even more likely, you’ve been aware of something, but you didn’t know what it was, or maybe you knew God was trying to get your attention, and you either ignored or flatly refused to allow him access. You can know him. It’s not a boys’ club, or a high-brow society. It’s a family, and each one of us is individually drawn by his Love and born as his child by accepting his Son.
You might just say it’s all coincedence and I’m making this stuff up. You say, it’s coming right out of your head. I don’t think so. Because if I had it my way, when things go right, I’d tend to take credit myself. But when God works, he does it in such a way to leave you in awe and let you know that it’s all by Grace. You see– we can plan out our lives, but it’s so much better living in a—Planned Spontaneity.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jer. 29:11)
For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him. (2 Chr. 16:9)
He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God. (John 1:11,12)