Beck column: Silver lining
Have you ever found a silver lining in one of those clouds that hovered over your head? During this recent Multiple Sclerosis flare-up, Iíve tried to remain optimistic even though neither the medication nor the physical therapy have stopped the negative things that have been happening.
It has become more and more difficult to push myself up to a standing position. Iíve been less and less able to stand long enough to get my clothes in place. In 2002 after the major MS exacerbation, I learned to dress lying down and that is what I have to do right now.
Once I make successful transfers I can get in my recliner to work on cards, write, read, or watch TV. I can still come and go in my van but am weaker than usual when I get home. Itís been easier for me to leave clothes lying on the bed rather than trying to hang them. The house is messier than usual but thankfully I have some help on Monday mornings.
All these years of having to push up have at times caused pain in my wrists, arms, shoulders, and back. At times I have had to get shots in my wrists and back to cope with the pain for a short while at least. Recently when my right wrist started hurting, I went to see the doctor for a shot. We discussed all the problems I have been having and he gave me the shot.
As he started out the door, I told him one thing about not being able to push up is that the pain has not been as bad lately in my shoulders and back. My sweet doctor smiled and said, ěYou find a silver lining in every cloud in your life. You are awesome!
I am not awesome! I serve an awesome God who has helped me through the years to be optimisticÖto see my glass as half-full, instead of half-empty! God has blessed me with doctors who have been patient, concerned and interested in taking care of me. Just recently I had told my neurologist that some folks think I am bringing the weakness on by trying to do too much. We discussed this and he said I have a purpose and should continue as long as I feel able.
God has given me opportunities to use my health problems as a ministry to be a listener, and hopefully, a comforter to others who suffer as I have. He led me to become a speaker to share with others the Good News of Jesus Christ, to write and tell others how He has been there for me throughout these troubled times.
God has a plan for you and if you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, He will lead and guide you to fulfill that plan. He doesnít promise us cloudless days but He can help us to find the silver lining in our personal clouds.
Linda Beck lives in Woodleaf.